He’s faithful and will make us faithful, though the process hurts

Reversal, Lord–constant reversal!
Every bit of walking in Your direction
has been about
saying no to what has seemed good to me
and turning around to say yes
to what I know seems good to You.
How this process
has stretched my heart–
often in ways I believed
would leave it permanently misshapen.
But You have remained faithful.
You have shown me
what love means:
Choosing to walk with the One
I have committed to,
that He may ever have the fullest joy
of His commitment to me.

What if I didn’t need You?

My heart rests in Your hands–
able to do nothing
to support its life–
yet rather than be afraid,
my heart is so pleased:
what I would miss
of Your touch
if I could give myself
all the care that draws
me near to You!

Perfect plans have pain as a part of them too

My heart is
tender…
but You knew that,
didn’t You, Lord?
I feel pain
and, immediately, I doubt–
Your hand should be keeping
these kinds of things away
from me.
Because my heart can’t take it,
right?

What if I thought it could?
What if I knew something about your heart
that you didn’t?
What if you could just
trust Me
before you reach the intersection
of your knowledge
and Mine?
What if everything would be okay…

God’s Dreams…Come True!

How do You consider me
so precious
and worthy
of Your infinite thoughts?
Lord, this love You’re covering
me with
is on a scale
I don’t feel prepared
to comprehend;
rather, I want it’s mystery
to intrigue my heart
to such a degree
that I come to You, asking questions…
questions that only You
could answer.
…Like,
did You always know Your
love would capture me
this way?
And, I wonder,
knowing as You did,
that there was yet so much of You
for me to see,
did You understand
how much this love
would undo me?
Did You know
that after I had been flooded
by it,
I could never
go back to being
content with the measure
that used to be enough?
If dreams like this have been
in Your heart for me
since the beginning,
how can I continue to wonder
whether my life might be a story
of dreams come true?

Grace knows the only way to growth

Here we are again–
I’m worrying that You don’t
understand that my heart
is fragile
and these circumstances
don’t seem soft enough
to compensate for that.
Where is Your grace?
I wonder.
But Your grace isn’t
gentle without having
fantastic strength–
otherwise, how would I
be transformed by it,
not just maintained?